Happy Iedul Fitri
Humans are not perfect...
Humans make mistakes..
But by making mistakes humans create perfection within them...
So let's forgive the mistakes...because after all we are human...
HAPPY IEDUL FITRI!!
-d-
Humans are not perfect...
Humans make mistakes..
But by making mistakes humans create perfection within them...
So let's forgive the mistakes...because after all we are human...
HAPPY IEDUL FITRI!!
-d-
when i miss that person, i close my eyes and i can see that person better
i try to forget and erase, but i get reminded of that person more
i told myself a lie thinking that that person would come back
that person never said that he will be coming back, but all i can do is wait
the sin of loving that person a lot, the sin of loving him a lot
because of that person, and because of sin, i'm sick of waiting
the sin of loving that person more, the sin of missing that person a lot
because of that person, and because of sin, im crying with pain..like this
did you have to leave that far away from me?
did you have to leave that far away from me?
i should've loved you with all my life,
i should have loved you with my all,
but now you live forgetting me
with all my life, the person that i love
that person only gave me tears and left
the tough love which hurt me alone
the sweet love which swept my soul alone
the sin of loving you more,
the sin of missing you a lot
because of you, and because of sin,
i'm crying with pain..like this
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Geu sarangeun namja....
Noreul joha handago ,Paboya!
I'm compiling the list of people i want to wacked most in this entire darkened universe..
I'm creating my own safe cocoon to be my sanctuary just in case they decide to destroy my well-being...
I'm contemplating plans to move on from this god forsaken place while leaving a huge turmoil that makes their blood rushing to their heads...
I'm convincing my self that these sickened , damned people are only exist in my brain instead of roaming around in the world...
I'm composing myself so i don't puke in front of their faces while they were acting like bunch of angels sent from above...
I'm trying so hard not to break anything they touch...
I'm dreaming of the real angel that vanished among the heavenly lights...
I'm erasing the memory in my brain about the vanishing angel who took half of my soul...
I'm reminiscing the reason why i should be here in the first place...
I'm rethinking about the blind dedication and constant blame from the muggles who shan't live...
But no matter how much i revive my self, one thing is tattooed and pierced in the core of my soul...
I'm not forgiving them and I'm not forgetting them, not now...not then..
In My Hour Of Darkness...
Lelah...capek...
Lelah untuk selalu berlari
Lelah untuk selalu melindungi
Lelah untuk selalu ada di sana
Sakit....
Sakit untuk selalu terluka
Sekit untuk selalu berdiri
Sakit untuk selalu tertawa
Sakit untuk selalu kuat
Lalu siapa yang akan berdiri di depan?
Siapa yang akan berlari?
Siapa yang akan mengoleskan antiseptik?
Siapa yang akan membentangkan lengannya?
Siapa yang akan ada di penghujung hari?
Tapi aku adalah Supergirl
Supergirl tidak menangis
Supergirl tidak terluka
Supergirl tidak lemah
Supergirl tidak butuh siapa-siapa
Karena itu berikan aku kryptonite
Jadikan aku manusia biasa
Karena manusia biasa berarti tak sendiri
Karena manusia biasa berarti lemah
Karena manusia biasa berarti hidup
--Ressurect me from myself--
Real world...adulthood...what the heck is that actually?
To what extent are you considered to be an adult? To what extend are you considered to experience the real world?
This kinda remind me of the folklore Peter Pan, of why the boy hated adulthood so much. And i think he's kinda right to feel that. Growing old is just tiring. The more you think you have the world in your hand, the more inhumane you became.
I don't want to be an adult if that means i have to be suspicious of every one i know and never believe in anyone throughout my life. I don't want to be an adult if that means i have to manipulate to get to my goals. I don't want to be an adult if enjoying my life equals to be dull and sinfull. I don't want to be an adult if adult means i have to be someone else that's not me.
But nevertheless i am growing old, and each day those black inks spread through my white paper of life. What are the last defenses i have to face the growing darkness? After all although many religious leader speak of partner of life, in the end we are always alone.
Each person has their own way to take. And for me, my last defenses are depicted in this song. Believing that somewhere there are somethings greater than me now inside of me. That no one can take me down to the path of rocks where the nice people usually ended. I am strong. I am invincible . And one day when i look back and see my life, i will be satisfied because i live the way that i am. I am what i am.
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John Mayer - No Such Thing
"Welcome to the real world", she said to me
Condescendingly
Take a seat
Take your life
Plot it out in black and white
Well I never lived the dreams of the prom kings
And the drama queens
I'd like to think the best of me
Is still hiding
Up my sleeve
They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something's better
On the other side
I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above
So the good boys and girls take the so called right track
Faded white hats
Grabbing credits and
Maybe transfers
They read all the books but they can't find the answers
And all of our parents
They're getting older
I wonder if they've wished for anything better
While in their memories
Tiny tragedies
They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something's better
On the other side
I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you got to rise above
I am invincible
I am invincible
I am invincible
As long as I'm alive
I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above
I just can't wait 'til my 10 year reunion
I'm gonna bust down the double doors
And when I stand on these tables before you
You will know what all this time was for
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(all lyrics are credited to John Mayer and its respected owner)
Lies they told
Comfort i get
Truth they behold
Pain i agonized
Cries a litre of tears
Because Lies and Truths getting me nowhere
It's blur...everything is gray
Cause there's no way to stay
May be it's time for this devil to leave the neverland...
Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, youll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
Youll see the sun come shining through for you
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile
Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile
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It would be easier when i can smile my way out of it
But you see...i can't...i just can't...
Lets re-clean and re-fresh ourselves in this holy day.
Let's forgive and forget all the bad deeds.
Let's give another thought of living healthily (Well, thats for me actually).
Let's find our way back to the arms of the people we love most.
And let's just forget about all those shitty days waiting ahead of us.
Happy Idul Fitri, You Guys!
-d-
Feeling like posting a song...hehehe.. (Although my eyes is not blue-coloured)
I thought that you'd be loving me.
I thought you were the one who'd stay forever.
But now forever's come and gone
And I'm still here alone.
'Cause you were only playing,
You were only playing with my heart.
I was never waiting,
I was never waiting for the tears to start.
It was you who put the clouds around me.
It was you who made the tears fall down.
It was you who broke my heart in pieces.
It was you, it was you who made my blue eyes blue.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.
I thought that I'd be all you need.
In your eyes I thought I saw my heaven.
And now my heaven's gone away
And I'm out in the cold.
'Cause you had me believing,
You had me believing in a lie.
Guess I couldn't see it,
I guess I couldn't see it till I saw goodbye.
It was you who put the clouds around me.
It was you who made the tears fall down.
It was you who broke my heart in pieces.
It was you, it was you who made my blue eyes blue.
--all lyrics and songs are entitled to its respected owner, Eric Clapton - Blue Eyes Blue--
It was you...It's still you...and it always you...
Just as he turned his back to her
He stopped
Just as she started to run to him
She stopped.
Standing behind the invisible walls
They stare
Unable to cross the border of decency
They hold out their hands
She loved him
She loved him over the edge of her sanity
He long for her
He long for her to release the constant pain in his head
They stopped because their reasons
They stopped because it's unloyal
They stopped because they love
They stopped because they believe
It is endless...